Estie's Diary Entry: 13 March 2308

Today's been insane. I mean REALLY insane.

I was sat in the mess hall of the ship this morning, just trying to think how I can sort things out with the rebels. I don't think I should have ever been left to lead them, I feel suffocated by my responsibilities and frankly I'm uncapable of it. Anyway, I digress.

I think Zoran had been looking for me, he looked glad once he saw me sat there. He asked me about my arm and checked it over, I imagin Jovalle (his on board medic/doctor) told him too.

We were talking and well I got upset all over again...and he kissed me...and I kissed back.

Its so unlike me to be like this, I'm so confused by my own emotions and even more so by his. I told him about my past today, about my parents, my brother and how he died right in front of me. I miss him ever so much, Zak protected me from so much and died when he failed to for the first time. I don't blame him... how could I? Once again, I am off topic.

I told Zoran about the rape, he looked shocked and then I think he started to understand why I am how I am. He really confuses me, maybe thats why I like him so much, because I just don't understand? He was so kind and caring today but once we left the hall he switched straight back to his rough harshness.

But then again... so did I.

Walking with Strangers (Pic fic, seriously heavy image load)

Introductions:



Estie and Zoran meet for the first time.

Estie: *runs and leans against a wall* I think I lost them...Oww my side!


Estie: I don't feel too..good...*drops whip onto floor with a clink*


*collapses*

Later on:


Zoran: Oh hell! *shakes Estie* Hello? Hello!? You're not dying on my watch!
*carries Estie to his ship*

On board:


Estie: Urrr...*starts to wake up* where am I? *turns over*


Estie: AHHHHHHHHH!
Zoran: Shush! You've had a nasty fight and you've broken your arm. Please just calm down!

After being looked after by Zoran's ship doctor:


Zoran: Here I brought you some food, you look like you need it.
Estie: :angry: What do you mean I look like I need it!?
Zoran: Well you've just had a big fight with the guards haven't you? I assume you are a rebel.


Estie: *bursts into tears* Yes... I'm Estrella. The leader... at least I was but... they were all killed! I'm all alone!


Zoran: You can stay here if you want. I'm Captain Zoran, this is the good ship Leviathan.


Estie: You mean it?
Zoran: *nods*
Estie: Thank you c'ptain. Please call me Estie.



Loneliness:

A Few days later:


Estie: *thinking*


Zoran: Ah, here you are. How is your arm today?
Estie: Better, though its still very sore.
Zoran: May I have a look?


Zoran: *lifts Estie's arm and gently bends it*
Estie: *flinches* Oww...


Zoran: Well its healing quite quickly, even if its still hurting.
Estie: Oh, thats good.
Zoran: You don't sound so sure.


Estie: I'm just thinking... I need to find the other rebel groups and...and then ..I don't know. I failed them.


Zoran: Don't talk silly. You didn't fail them, you couldn't have predicted the guard raid on the headquarters... there was nothing you could do.
Estie: I can't do it Zoran... I can't lead them anymore, I'm all alone and I can't handle it anymore.


Zoran: You're not alone so long as you let people in. You don't have to be on your own.
Estie: But.. but..
Zoran: You're a clever girl Estie.


*Kiss*