Today's been insane. I mean REALLY insane.
I was sat in the mess hall of the ship this morning, just trying to think how I can sort things out with the rebels. I don't think I should have ever been left to lead them, I feel suffocated by my responsibilities and frankly I'm uncapable of it. Anyway, I digress.
I think Zoran had been looking for me, he looked glad once he saw me sat there. He asked me about my arm and checked it over, I imagin Jovalle (his on board medic/doctor) told him too.
We were talking and well I got upset all over again...and he kissed me...and I kissed back.
Its so unlike me to be like this, I'm so confused by my own emotions and even more so by his. I told him about my past today, about my parents, my brother and how he died right in front of me. I miss him ever so much, Zak protected me from so much and died when he failed to for the first time. I don't blame him... how could I? Once again, I am off topic.
I told Zoran about the rape, he looked shocked and then I think he started to understand why I am how I am. He really confuses me, maybe thats why I like him so much, because I just don't understand? He was so kind and caring today but once we left the hall he switched straight back to his rough harshness.
But then again... so did I.
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